Hi, James! You must
wonder why I sent you this letter… As you might expect, yes, I have something
to tell you.
I first
met you in a math class. Actually I didn’t even know you were in my class, but
as the time passed, I glanced at you, thought about you. Going to bed, I always
thought of you. When I dreamed about you, I smiled throughout the whole day.
Reading this, you might be surprised since I pretended like I don’t see you as
a man. I worried about the relationship which can be so awkward if we two are
looking at different sides. However, I just wanted to express my feelings. I
don’t want to trick myself anymore.
Every
time I saw you, I felt like all my worries and bad moods just being washed out.
I wanted to talk to you, but I was afraid – what if you feel uncomfortable? How
can such a wonderful boy like you even look at me? But at last, I recognized
that this feeling was blown up so large and couldn’t help exploding.
Do you know your tiny little curly hairs
dangling in front of you is so sexy? As
I see it swooshing in the wind when you’re playing basketball, I feel my heart
swooshing and being soaked in love. Your bright tinkling eyes urge me to dive
in it. Yes… I think… I’m in love with you.
I
really want to know much about you. Where do you live? What do you like to do?
I think that we can be close to each other if we know each other better. I’ve
seen you on facebook liking the music pages. How cute. Yeah, you must know that
you are a sexy, cute, and handsome boy. Yeah, you should know why I am so into
you. Do you remember when our eyes met together? Last day I was watching
your glowing red moist lips. I imagined your lips and my lips are mixed
together. During that short time, I couldn’t get out from you.
James
stood, with his hand trembling and lips unable to meet. He tried to remember
who might send this letter. However, his math class consisted of 7 boys. He’s
going to an all-boys school.
James had never questioned his own sexual identity before.
He liked girls, females, women. So, this was… shocking. Actually it’s beyond
expression.. 'In the math class? Who were in that class? Thomas? Joe? Isaac?'
"Oh Isaac..”
This couldn’t be him, could he? James shuddered at the idea
and the fact that he considered the possibility. However, he couldn’t stop
pondering secretly.
The day after, Isaac told him to come to the rooftop after
the classes.
“It was him….,” James whispered. When he went there, Isaac was
waiting for him with the scent of perfume. Isaac said. “Yes… I’m the one who
wrote the letter,” with shy smile. “I’m sorry, but I,” before James finish his
words, Isaac hugged him tightly and ran away. He lost his mind. He couldn’t say
anything. He couldn’t do anything.
The two
were not the only people who were at the rooftop at that time.
John, the best friend of James', was there, too. He was napping under the
sunshine and woke up because of the strong perfume. He thought that James loves
Isaac, as well since he saw the little lift in corner's of his mouth. Inexplicable
anger boiled. He told his friends everything he saw.
James
went to school, still couldn’t distinguish if he’s dreaming. While he’s walking
through the hallway, he could see some students whisper each other looking at him.
All students knew it, but quite differently. For them, Isaac and James are
already a couple. James hated that. He hated Isaac.
However, as he thought about Isaac, he noticed that he couldn't get out of the image and the scent of Isaac. Especially, he couldn't stop thinking about the feeling when Isaac hugged him.
Yes. A new, secretive romance starts to make two hearts flutter.
